AUTUMN’S SEXUAL AWAKENING: FROM A FIVE-YEAR DROUGHT TO EXPLORING POLYAMORY
Autumn, a 33-year-old single mother from Yorkshire, opens up about her journey of sexual exploration and self-discovery. After going without sex for five years due to the challenges of single parenting, Autumn’s sex life is now “blossoming.”
In her early 20s, Autumn found it impossible to date with a small baby and no help. This led to a torturous five-year drought where she almost gave up on ever having a sex life again. However, after her dry spell ended, Autumn started exploring her sexuality and came out as bisexual three years ago.
Autumn admits that she has always suspected she was bisexual, but it took her almost 30 years to fully admit it. Only a select few people in her life know her true feelings. She had a one-night stand with a woman she knew from university, which made her realize that her attraction to women was more than just alcohol-fueled experimentation.
Now that her 10-year-old daughter is at school, Autumn has ventured into the world of dating apps and has even started experimenting with polyamory. Dating apps have allowed her to connect with people as a woman, rather than just as a mother. Autumn is drawn to people regardless of their gender or relationship status and believes that it’s about fire and connection.
This week, Autumn shares her experiences of spontaneous speed-dating, sexting with an old friend, and exploring a potential relationship with a polyamorous couple. She describes the excitement and nerves she feels as she navigates this new territory.
On Monday, Autumn spontaneously books a ticket to a speed-dating event but is disappointed when the venue is almost empty. Frustrated, she turns to sexting with an old friend for some satisfaction.
Tuesday brings messages from a recent connection on a dating app. They discuss ethical non-monogamy, which Autumn had never considered before. She feels hooked and excited about the idea of being a part of a polyamorous relationship.
Wednesday is a typical day of parenting for Autumn, but she finds solace in dating apps during the more tedious moments. However, being a single parent living in the countryside makes spontaneity difficult. To fight the boredom, Autumn turns to her ex for some reliable excitement.
On Thursday, Autumn wakes up with thoughts of her ex and the possibility of rekindling their relationship. She reflects on the guilt she has felt for wanting a sex life and the hidden aspects of her desires. Parenthood has often meant sacrificing her own pleasure.
Friday is the day Autumn is set to meet the polyamorous couple. She is nervous but relieved when she receives a text saying that only the man will be able to make it. They have a great time together, and Autumn is reminded of the intoxicating feeling of connection.
Saturday brings a sleepless night as Autumn reflects on her date and the thrill of not knowing what will happen next. She worries about getting too attached and losing herself in this new territory of multiple relationships.
On Sunday, Autumn meets the couple and is charmed by their dynamic. She doesn’t feel like a third wheel and is excited about the possibilities that lie ahead. As they sit in a crowded café, Autumn can’t help but imagine what the future holds for her with this couple.
Autumn’s journey of sexual awakening and exploration is far from over. She is embracing her desires and finding fulfillment in connecting with others. As she continues to navigate the world of dating and polyamory, Autumn is excited to see where her journey will take her next.
